ambiguity

February 24, 2009

learn

Filed under: Uncategorized — theinkhorn @ 3:40 am

Monday nights don’t usually seem like they could provide epiphanies. This one, somehow, manage to send one flying straight for my jaw, and now i’ve landed hard on my bum, and i’m awake.

My thirst for knowledge, knowledge and more knowledge has been quelled by the desire to stabilize my life. Somehow, i’ve managed to completely shove my craving for wisdom to the back of my head, and focus on managing everything life has thrown at me. And for that, i am ashamed. I am upset. I am angry. But more than all that, i am disgusted. I am disgusted with how much i’ve sold out. I’m repulsed by how normal i’ve become. Being a serious narcissist, it is incredible how much i hate myself right now.

If we ever stop asking questions like why and how, life would essentially become nothing but a big plastic slide. We climb up the steps, slide down, and repeat. Its when we crave wisdom, knowledge and information, that we question, that we explore, and suddenly, crawling up the slide and sliding down the railings of the steps seems like a more interesting alternative. Suddenly, the slide becomes a completely different entity, up is down, left is right, in is out. And that is when we look at the slide and go “fuck i want another go”.

Well, fuck, i want another fucking go. I’ve been so distracted by everything, that i’ve forgotten what life is really all about. I’ve left it all behind in search of a goose that never lays the golden eggs it promised. Now, my eyes are open, my mind is awake. Now, i want answers. To everything.

February 15, 2009

Rendezvous

Filed under: Uncategorized — theinkhorn @ 5:27 pm

Its been an exhausting weekend. My first bartending gig since the one night stand with Hacienda has finally begun and its really beginning to bust my balls. The Public House is very very unconventional compared to all the other corporate, generic bars i’ve worked at. Completely different rules and procedures in there, so much so that i’ve been reduced to being taught how to run a bar by a noisy 23 year old girl who’s barely had more than 2 years of experience in the industry.

Its frustrating, seeing almost 5 years worth of experience go down the drain just like that, but hey, i should’ve known what was coming when i saw the sign that said “Dear patrons, if our drinks, food and service don’t meet your standards, PLEASE LOWER YOUR STANDARDS.”

That’s what impresses me about The Public House. In the face of all this competition, in a time where bar owners are making their employees work faster, wear neater uniforms and take less off days, they have the guts to run a bar where the staff wear what they want, take offs when they want and work at whatever pace they want. Its strange but it works because quite frankly, i have never seen more dedicated and hard working staff. I’ve been put to shame.

February 8, 2009

HUH?

Filed under: Miscellanous — theinkhorn @ 7:43 pm

I was on my way to the bathroom for a shower when i caught a glimpse of the newspaper titled “Urban”. On the cover was local singer Stephanie Sun. Pretty ordinary looking, until my eyes met the headlines.

“Stephanie Sun, dubbed the “Kate Moss of Singapore”……”

That was as far as i got because my stomach began to hurt from laughing so much and i had to sit down.

So, i had time to come up with possible explanations for Urban’s… indiscretion.
1. They really really need some readers.
2. They have a problem with Kate.
3. They really really like Stephanie Sun
4. They don’t really know who Kate Moss is.
5. Stephanie Sun paid them to do it.
6. They are compulsive liars.

Really. Urban needs new writers. People who know what they’re saying. Its like comparing the Premier League with the national secondary school soccer tournament. Well, made me laugh. Good one Urban.

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